I’m sat on the sofa, doing my painting. Calming music for dogs is playing to try and help Ralph through the fireworks.
Ben and Ralph are both next to me asleep, both of them touching me, I could cry. I may feel like my world is crashing down around me again, but this moment, now, is perfect. To think I nearly lost them both, my own stupidity which led me to have a massive breakdown very nearly took them away from me.
Right now I can hear fireworks but neither of them have heard them. The fact I can feel them both touch me, the music is playing, this is perfection. They are my boys and I love them both so much. Whatever or whoever it was that helped me get to this point, thank you.