Blog Entries

I didn’t go to the group last night, I’ve been working too much this week so was really tired and I’ve not seen B much this week, so needed to stay home. I absolutely hated not being there, I missed them. Continue reading “The group….my friends”

Been playing with an idea over the past few days. I’d really like to start a page on here for guest writers. I could take contributions from anyone who has had addiction issues. Continue reading “Guest writers”

I’m working on this website, thinking lots about how it might hopefully help someone, thinking about how I can get people to look at it.  Then it suddenly struck me, my face is all over it, it’s on every page, do I want people to know who I am ?  I’m really not sure I do, fine if nobody I know looks at it then it won’t matter, but what if someone I work with, or a friend looks at the site ?

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Am trying to work out how to add a link for people to follow my blog on my new website. Also can work out if people who were following me have moved over to this address or not…..

All very frustrating but I guess I’ll get there

As this week comes to an end, I remember it was this time last year that I stopped using drugs. Things have happened these past two weeks which have made me think, things in my life and the lives of people I care about, things that have helped me put my own current situation into perspective. Continue reading “One year on”

Just once more, that’s all I ask. I just want that feeling one more time. Why can’t I have it, enjoy it, the feeling of the steel sliding into my vein, the feeling of flesh on flesh. Continue reading “Just once more”

Tonight I went to the addiction recovery support group that I joined some months back. It wasn’t an easy meeting, the struggles of others met with my own issues, but as always we supported each other and tried to help where we can. Continue reading “Tonight’s group”

Just a warning before I start, don’t read this if you are offended or triggered by talk of sex or drugs. Today I wobbled, today I craved, today I realised I am still an addict, and this is the story I need to write down. Continue reading “Still an addict”

This week I’m off work, so I’m having to deal with the demons in my head telling me I could use the time alone to get high, get wasted with someone and have some amazing sex. My sensible head is managing to keep my stupid head in check so far, but this afternoon came a wobble. Continue reading “The syringe”

I’m having a week off work, from my main job anyway. B isn’t, it’s just me and the dog staying home for a week. This is the first real time off I’ve had since Christmas, and spookily it’s almost exactly a year since I last had a random week off like this, and that was the week I stuck a needle in my arm for the last time. I hadn’t planned it that way a few weeks back when I booked it off work, it just happened. Continue reading “A week off”