Well I’ve done most of them, not touched heroin or crack, I got myself in deep enough without those.
So I’ve snorted mcat, ketamine, and coke. I’ve smoked meth, and injected it too, as well as mcat. Ive drunk G as well. I’ve smoked a lot of joints years ago, as well as doing acid and stuff but this blog isn’t about that period of my life.
So I’ve pretty much used all the “recreational” drugs. They all promised to make me feel better about myself, they took away all the negative shit in my head, but without exception, they all make it so much worse when they wear off.
It all started off simple enough, a couple of lines of mcat, a little G, I won’t deny it was fun, it was. But it put me in social circles I wouldn’t normally have chosen, before not too long I was being asked if I slammed.
Enough for now, I don’t think I want to go down this road anymore right now. My life took a turn at this point, one I truly wish I hadn’t taken, one I regret so much. I followed that path and what was a life of bad feelings, disliking myself, and all the other shit I carried, it all turned so much worse. What life I had, was torn apart. I wish I could go back to just being miserable all the time, but I can’t, now I hate myself as well, I will never be the same again.